Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain around one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Cheryl Bowers
Cheryl Bowers

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